ugg. second day of orientation today. my what a load of brainwashing! i am part of a dream.. apparently.

Got my uniforms.. I hate uniforms. I have BOOBS dammit!!! ACCOMIDATE them!!

We had lagsagnag yesturday.. today it was dead animal sandwiches. Speaking of dead animlas.. I made jerky for the first time last night in my new dehydrator.. its yummy.. and I know whats in it for SURE!

I took a tour on a bus. I played stupid "get to know your co-workers" games. so incrediably lame. and all the videos I was so honored to share. And coffee.. bless them for that at least. Although, they didnt put out enough buckets of cream. AND the sugar packets were hard- thus they have been exposed to liquid...and while my rational mind tells me it was just humidity.... my other side insists that it is in fact URINE. Either way, I switched to sealed up cleanable topped soda cans... ice tea if you please.

I doubt I can explain how taxing the past two days of this thing have been. All the things I did that I just dont do. I feel drained of all my normalicy pebbles. Like.. there were 3 lightbulbs burnt out up in the banquete room... two on one side.. one -just ONE on the other. And all I could do was sit there and pretend everything was fine. and the elevators.. I actually, no shit, just got dizzy thinking about them- Sitting here in my chair.

Clearly, breaking out of my rut and routine has demonstrated just how much further I may have slipped. I guess you just dont know how wobbly you are until you try to walk around again.

And....

Over on myspace I am assisting a friend in driving a stalker away.... in case any of my folk that read both these.. yes thats mostly YOU Sam. But I have in fact NOT moved to Illinoise.. fuck I cant even spell it. Its been funny actually. But he is in a sticky situation because he knows her. People sure be funny. Anyhoo.