Well, im all moved. And for the low cost of only one mental break down. worked like mad till late hauling the last of everything... I was tired and hot and stressin...and then the time came to hand over my dog to her new home.

I thought it would all be fine because, while I do love her dearly, I am just not a dog person and I know I dont give her the attention she really needs. But even with that being said, I bawled like a little baby. Then I cleaned myself up and hauled the last load to pauls.

I got there and everything was pissing me off everything was makeing me regret this choice. I stood outside crying and freaking out thinking I should run away , thinking I had made the wrong choice and ruined everything. I calmed down though, put that fear and need to flee in the box ive trained myself to use. That emotional quarentine tank I try to use when I feel irrational.

Now a good clean shower and a good nights rest and all seems ok again. I didnt behave too rashly or drive away as I wanted to. I just set it aside. See, if you do that and the feeling is still there when all chaos settles, then you can take it back out and feel it, act upon it, react to it. But if you just give it even a days time, most of those feelings fade and fall away. My problem has always been reacting with severe haste to every single emotion and thought I have. Until I got my holding tank built that is.