I hope everyone had a nice Thursday. I know it may not be over yet, but its close enough.

I am getting a new tattoo. A very liberating one. Something symbolic, I just cant decide what. One moment I think I should get another dragon fly. The next I think not. I dont know, have a little time to think about it. Must save up.

I must save up for a lot of things now. I should look into a part time thing again. I dont want to, I have many things I would rather do with my time. I am selling my Vino. I know I liked it very much, but my priorities in life have been dramatically altered in the past 2 weeks.

I may as well just spit it out. I am looking for an apartment. I am getting a divorce.

It has been a long time coming.

He is a great guy.... just not for me. I have felt such enormous relief since makeing the final descision. I feel more alive then I have in the past hmm, I dont know, maybe forever. I just cant hold back anymore. I dont feel like I failed at the marriage thing. More like I didnt have all the pieces to a puzzle that I have been trying to put together for 12 years.

Support from friends and family has been strange. I expected more of them to think I was a aweful. They all like Derek so much. But apparently most everyone could see this coming for a long time. I knew it was, but I thought I covered it up a bit better then all that.

Anyhooo, that is what I had to say. There is much more to tell to my story. For now, for others, I leave it where it is.